Wednesday, February 2, 2011

opposition and a wall

Today was a good day.

Well, it started that way anyway.

It was a snow day today, so the world woke with the whirrrr of snow blowers, one per drive.

Snuggles with my boys as daddy clears the way for us to get out for adventure. "Quiet" time with the Lord, cup of coffee in hand.

We ventured out mid morning to drive downtown and breath deep the fresh air our lungs longed for after being held captive by winter in my house.

We went and held little bunnies at the pet store, shared cookies at coffee culture, and bought cheap toys and craft things at the dollar store.

We coloured outside the lines in books with kid pictures, painted with our fingers, ignored dishes, and made messes.

We decorated pizza...mmmmmmm

And then it happened. One conversation that devastated my day. Nothing that should be a big deal, but for was.
And I have sat here for hours. And have pondered why my heart is hurt and why tears sit ready to spill over.

And finally, i remember my "quiet" time with the Lord, and the scripture I have felt need to read, and how I did read it, and now I know why.


A man called by God to go rebuild a wall.
And he does what seems impossible.
There is opposition that rises against him, and so he arms everyone and keeps pressing on.
He remains faithful to the call.

I feel like Nehemiah.
It's impossible
And there is opposition

except that i don't really feel like arming myself. or pressing on, for that matter.

But I will
I can't help it.

Linking with Imperfect Prose


  1. With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.

    Psalm 18:29 :)

  2. we are studying nehemiah in my bible study now, not from the perspective of ME being Nehemiah, but of ME being the wall, the burned, destroyed wall that God wants to rebuilt. It's an interesting perspective, but I have to say that most days, I feel more like a leaderless Israelite than an amazing man(woman) of God.
    But, He is in the business of rebuilding.

  3. i continue to pray for you, now i'll add standing firm against opposition and finding the desire/strength to arm yourself to those prayers.

    your day sounds fantastic before the conversation. :)

    how much snow did you get? we got maybe 5cm of the promised 20+, but they cancelled school anyway. it was especially disappointing that it was a PD.

  4. Good for you! Press on.

    Romans 5:3-4
    Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.

  5. Oh I know that feeling! For me, it comes even when I see an email in my inbox with a subject line. The dread hits: this is going to ruin it all! It takes such faith to keep going, and even more to keep going with joy in the heart!

  6. We coloured outside the lines in books with kid pictures, painted with our fingers, ignored dishes, and made messes.

    first of all, that was my favorite line... loved this post, all of it, my dear, dear friend...

    secondly, i ache... how i ache for you... that such a beautiful day should be shattered by someone's careless words. it makes me want to take revenge on your behalf, but i am humbled, made meek, by your response, and i know yours is a holy one, and that it is how God wanted you to respond. take heart, friend. nehemiah was paving the way for Christ. there is an enemy in the world who doesn't want the good news shared. keep building, one brick at a time. i love you so much.