"If you refuse to take up your cross and follow me, you are not worthy of being mine.If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for me, you will find it."
-Jesus, Matthew 10:38-39
Powerful words spoken by the Son of Man.
Many of you have read in my previous blogs of the journy that God has been taking me on over the last few months.
Well, I have reached a cross roads. It is desision time. Tomorrow could change my life, as I know it, fovever.
Life as I know it.
What is life?
I like my life right now. And I don't understand the things that God is asking of me. They don't make much sence. So I have been clinging to my life. I don't want to let it go because it is nice, it is comfortable. I know this life.
"anyone who clings to life will lose it"
these words struck me as I read them.
And I heard Him again.
As tho He had read the WORD to me Himself.
"This verse is meant for you to do now, just as it was when you first knew me. Why do you cling to this life you have? You will lose it. Let it go, so that I can show you the life I intend for you"
Powerful words spoken by the Son of God.
I am convicted.
I have been disiplined.
I have desided to pick up my cross again.
For this life I have is nothing to cling to
It is dirty
It is broken
and not carrying the cross has made me weary.
So tomorrow, as I let go of my life, i will uncurl my fingers, relax whitened knuckles, and stop clinging to the life I desperatly want to hold onto, trusting that when I do, I will find the life God has waiting for me.
Pray for me friends. This is easier to write about then to do.
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